I haven’t done this in a very very long time, I told you I was writing a letter to every boyfriend I had and just closing that cycle and I didn’t thought I was going to write you a letter because this cycle didn’t close it just evolved and I wanted to give thanks.
When choosing the picture for this post I happen to find this one and thought that is really how we are. You have always been someone I can fall into and our conversations have always made me feel lighter, better, happier. Like that song you send me once (angel)
We used to be so fucking cheesy and express so much love for each other in the past and nowdays i think the less we say it, the stronger it gets.
Whenever i met someone new is kind of like a thing people have that they talk about what they have and their accomplishement, nowdays you must show off your house, your car, etc to get validation from people. I think this is why i am not so open about meeting new people, i have never care about this and also i’ve always think that one of my biggest accomplish is our fucking relationship but because of that i rather not share that with anyone.
You and Nata are the only people i can have a conversation and disagreement with just by staring at each other, i feel like i can say things like «and at that moment i knew that he would be that painting in a museum that i would never be able to have but will always admired» and you know exactly what i mean and who i am talking about and feel exactly what i am feeling other times i say things like this silence is louder than before and i am so tired i just wish i could go home and you know what i mean and with other people i have to explain myself and even if i explain myself they only hear what they want to hear.
You don’t try to walk on my shoes because somehow it has always feel like you walk with me and see you also know what that means. I keep wishing for life to have turned out exactly how we picture it on that cold winter day 11 years ago when we laid on the grass and picture everyone’s life and ours revolving around theirs hahaha but life is a lot harder and we were very naive back then thinking we would get married hahaha althought you know our deal, you have 8 years to find someone or you get to marry me lol
Anyways i just wanted to say i love you, but that looks so simple because i have this need of saying what that i love you contains and where is it coming from. I also miss you but you know that won’t last for too long 😉
– Your words have the power to either build up someone or bring them down. So use them wisely.
– Knowing when to speak and when to remain silent is one of the most powerful tools you can acquire
– Always be yourself, be so yourself and aware that this might bothered and is ok. Maybe you shouldn’t have those people around.
– Feeling emotions is ok, is the path to let go. Holding to those emotions is how you destroy yourself.
– You only get to live once, Oct/27/2021 will only happen once. So make everyday count.
– You are learning how to love yourself so you can let others know how you like to be treat it and learn not to settle for less.
– There is a lot of freedom in pain and so much pain in being “OKAY”.
– You read people like you read books, and that’s either amazingly beautiful for some and incredibly uncomfortable for others, but that’s not your fault, that’s just you.
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