I haven’t done this in a very very long time, I told you I was writing a letter to every boyfriend I had and just closing that cycle and I didn’t thought I was going to write you a letter because this cycle didn’t close it just evolved and I wanted to give thanks.
When choosing the picture for this post I happen to find this one and thought that is really how we are. You have always been someone I can fall into and our conversations have always made me feel lighter, better, happier. Like that song you send me once (angel)
We used to be so fucking cheesy and express so much love for each other in the past and nowdays i think the less we say it, the stronger it gets.
Whenever i met someone new is kind of like a thing people have that they talk about what they have and their accomplishement, nowdays you must show off your house, your car, etc to get validation from people. I think this is why i am not so open about meeting new people, i have never care about this and also i’ve always think that one of my biggest accomplish is our fucking relationship but because of that i rather not share that with anyone.
You and Nata are the only people i can have a conversation and disagreement with just by staring at each other, i feel like i can say things like «and at that moment i knew that he would be that painting in a museum that i would never be able to have but will always admired» and you know exactly what i mean and who i am talking about and feel exactly what i am feeling other times i say things like this silence is louder than before and i am so tired i just wish i could go home and you know what i mean and with other people i have to explain myself and even if i explain myself they only hear what they want to hear.
You don’t try to walk on my shoes because somehow it has always feel like you walk with me and see you also know what that means. I keep wishing for life to have turned out exactly how we picture it on that cold winter day 11 years ago when we laid on the grass and picture everyone’s life and ours revolving around theirs hahaha but life is a lot harder and we were very naive back then thinking we would get married hahaha althought you know our deal, you have 8 years to find someone or you get to marry me lol
Anyways i just wanted to say i love you, but that looks so simple because i have this need of saying what that i love you contains and where is it coming from. I also miss you but you know that won’t last for too long 😉
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