First Letter to My Younger-Self

  I wont sit here pretending to know what life is all about, however if you would ask me about life i would tell you what i do know, which is not much and I’m pretty sure I’m wrong in many things. However I also know life will eventually show me how wrong I might be. So here are a few things I believe you gain while going through life.

  GROWING : The older you get the bigger the responsibilities and the screw ups you make. Keep always in mind that growing doesn’t mean physically but mentally, so far growing up to me has not been a fun thing. I get scared a lot of the times, and i just hope I’m not the only one.

         TRUST : Becomes something you don’t give away easily, we learn not everyone is out to get you but not everyone will be your best friend either. There will be a lot of people that will put you down, will point out your weakness, will hurt you and even get you to question yourself. I used to hate them and thought if then as a bad mistake, is because of them i don’t fall that easy anymore is because of them i have learned how far i can go to get something, and is because of them that i have realized I’m a strong little fella.

         PLANS : well that is somethings interesting to talk about, Dad has always said » Have a plan A,B and C » when it comes to life i guess that is why i always try to jump into conclusions instead  of just letting things come to me, I’m not saying Dad is wrong, of course he is not. You do need backups too, like if your date doesn’t show, have another person to call and make that night the best of it. Don’t let the little things stops you from enjoying and get to where you want to go and for that you always need backups. If your aunt is not helping you and she is only stopping you from going places, go to your uncle maybe he will take your hand and help you out. So my dad is right about always having backups but planning things ahead will only do one thing, you will make GOD laugh for planning your future when is in his hands not yours. However he is not overprotective and he will always make you decided. So choose wisely what your next move will be THAT you can plan !

         PLACES : Oh places! you know when i was little i used to want to go anywhere around the world and that wish hasn’t  go away at all. Who have not said « i want to travel around the world»  but as the time passed by i realized that i cant not go places without knowing first who i am. So get to know your surrender even if you live in the most boring place in the world (Memphis some might say) enjoy it because when you leave from that small place you will miss it and will only want to go back.

   MEMORIES : who doesn’t have a memory hasn’t live a good life, i mean the only thing i don’t want to remember or keep close to my heart are the hard times and even those i still do sometimes just to appreciate the good ones. However sometimes memories can do some damage and will stop you from living the present i know there are a lot of moments you wish you could go back in time, but we cant. So like my mother says live every single day like it was the last one and just enjoy it even if its crappy raining day look for the beauty, that way you will gain more and more memories so you can share it later on in stories.

   FRIENDS : here is something you will never admit well until now, we don’t know a thing about how to be a friend, i don’t know how to be one, and i don’t know how a friend supposed to act, i don’t know how much you should give and how much you should receive because there isn’t a book where it tell you how to be a best friend, or a boyfriend/girlfriend, a daughter, son, mother, father, etc. What i do know is who i am and i know what I’m capable of and give, so i don’t know if i can be a best friend but i do know once i open my trust to someone i give them all and i don’t hold anything back, like i said before i don’t know if that is the right way i mean i hurt then and they hurts me but hey I’m still learning and maybe one day i will get it right.

    LOVE : honestly love for me comes in all types of shapes, there is the love towards your parents, siblings, towards your friends and even your pets! But I’m going to take those aside for a minute and talk to you about the love you will feel for that special someone. Now that love is hard, cruel, painful and amazingly beautiful, i might be wrong but love for me is not blind you do see the mistakes the other one does because at one point they will hurt you, but you make will make them aside and keep going, i just don’t know yet how long and how far you keep doing this, maybe real love is the one you keep putting thing aside and forgetting all the bad things, Are you going to be in a relationship? Yes you will, and this is what you have to know the cliche idea of a guy being stronger than a girl and how they don’t cry is all bull, not I’m not a feminist i promise but there will be times where the guy get to a weak point and he gets hurt thanks to the mistakes or things that are going around his life that you wont be able to stop, You will have to be strong enough then to not let the pain get you two down, and you will have to fight for him. So basically love will make you do things you never thought you would do for anyone, the roles changes sometimes you just have to take them and accept them.

I’m still learning and there is more to come, many things i didn’t tell you about but that you will have to find out for yourself… you will do good i promise, just keep smiling and dreaming,

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